Raya Open House

Yesterday was exhausting... terase sampai harini. We asked friends to come at noon but then standard lah janji melayu, semua sampai lambat. Abang's frens clashed with mine. Semua datang serentak. So the house was like... packed gila! asal ada space je.. ada la orang. tangga pun orang duduk!... well, it's once in a year je kan. thank god my soto laku n ada nasi lemak for backup food. it ended at 11p.m.... gila penat. thanks again to all who came yesterday.

Giggle

omygod.. omigod.. oh my god! I went to a gig! Never in my life have I been to any g…ig before. It felt like… gosh I don’t know. A bit of excitement, confused all the way, fun and nervous! I never thought I will step into a gig… ever! Haha. It’s a whole new experience for me. Knowing the fact that I’m already 22 n just stepped into a gig.. sounds too old to try out new things like that but hey, at least I tried! Watching live bands playing with their own songs and music……very cool! I don’t even know every band playing in the same gig has their own genre which is different with the others. I thought they will be playin the same genre. It’s like… hm….. how do I put this?........................ a mixture of RNB, house, and jazz in the same club. They have different crowd, but everyone was having fun together. But I don’t know if it’s different with the other gigs. I’ve just tried one.

How I got into it. Zhaf and the jamboooo band hafta perform that sat. I asked Mim out that Saturday but of course she has to watch Zhaf that day. So Mim came out with the idea out of no where [since she knows I don’t really ‘into’ da thang]..asking me to come along with her n few friends to a GIG. I needed to try out new things. I know that thing is so not new. I mean, people started going to a gig in high school. Not when u r this old! Huahuahua. Pegi la mampus. I agreed n was sooooo excited! Not excited bcoz I got to do that thing, it’s bcoz I get to see that thing. The scene. The people. The stories that I heard. And so and so and so.

We went to bijou first. Crazy fucking lovely stuff they were selling there. Duit raya dah habis a week before. Very upset very disappointed. Nak aje rembat semua tu. It’s okay… blog marketing is very popular nowadays. They will hav it more in the future with my purse full with money and shop crazily. Thennnn we go to the gig. Sesat kat bb bcoz of my “orang kl direction who shud know better”. Jem. Hujan.

Stepped into the place with all the GIG peeeeooopleeee! Horror horror. Very scary. Nervous breakdown. No cover, just for charity. Gave RM1 je. Sorrrrryyyyyyyy!!! Omg sampai skarang rase bersalah! I have no change! Walked inside with prayers in my heart and went straight to the front passing by allll the gigsters. God… very scary I want to die. But when I looked at Mim’s and Jehan’s coolness, I acted cool also as if I’m one of the gigster. Muahaha. Lagi2 la Zhaf’s band was always with us, terase macam…. I’m one of the band’s chick…no one can touch me. Hahaha. Poyo siaaaaaaaal! Wuteva. My experience, not urs! Go do ur blog!

Then the band starts playin. I just stand……still. I was.. numb. I don’t know how to do this. I don’t know! I don’t know what to do, how to react. I’m a fake gigster. I found it fun but maybe it will be awesome if I know how, learnt how to be in the scene. That’s all. My very first gig ever! I enjoyed it. Thanx Mim, Zhaf, Jehan, Dianne and the rest who kept asking me, “Are you okay?” every 5 minutes. Muahh!

Womanizer

Penatnye tunggu vc baru Britney ni. i thot they said the premiere is today? tape... time at the states lembab. sabar yea lydia... i know i cant wait for her new vc. kenape tak sabar? bcoz tenshen pulak bace all the gossips n stories about the making of circus and this vc. so nak tgk laaaa btul ke britney cam super hot in that vc? dont disappoint me sistah!

do you guys know about a movie called Twilight? hot sangat ke diorang tu? cam meletup2 je gossips that i heard. i read that it's the hottest movie of the fall.. hm? zac efron ade? hehe...

btw... yesterday i was at home tryna memorize the whole fuking long just dance lyrics while my mum cleaned the house.

like mother like daughter, without any warning, any sound, anything... "ehhhhhhhhh!!! ehhhhhhhhhhh!!!!" mummy dengan panicnye menjerit2. i thot mummy kena rasuk coz it's maghrib and balasan tuhan kot sebab tak respect azan sambil menghapal lagu.

the she continued, "gucci mane?"

"tak tau. y?"

"die dah few days takde kan?"

"alaaaa die keluar jalan2 la tuuu. dating ke. kawin ke.. relax lah."

"nooooooo i saw a cat hit by a car at the back of our house that day! bangkai kucing tu still lagi kat tepi jalan! tah tahh tu gucci kot???!"

mami tkejut.
i pun tkejut.
both of us terus senyap.

i thot of going to the place mami cakap tu. nak verify whether tu gucci ke tak! but then bile pk balik.. bangkai?... euw... sad gile ni. i try to think positive that gucci is somewhere menyundal n alive!

Big Hideous Smile Night

So yesterday my day macam sial sikit bcoz of the hideous smile. I was full with anger bcoz somebody so selfish cannot accept some simple, direct, understandable joke.

So my beloved Mim and her ice ice bebeh scandal.. took me out from this madness to Sg. Wang. Hehe. Korang ni dah tau aku tgh tenshen… lagi buat aku tenshen dengan shopping sakan korang while aku plak dah abeskan duit raye minum strawberry long island. Dammit. Takpe… at least u guys care bout me. Heeee.

Because the level of my anger and tension too high… we planned to bersuka ria sambil bobo malam itu. Mim and zhaf went back to hartamas then came back to stw to pick me up that night. Sebelum tu diorang sempat singgah rumah miss B.H. to take my drink yg die simpan. Sorry Mim, kau kena dgr plak die punye cerita.

Me and Mim hav been talking about the same topic since we met that day. Zhaf dah tension dengar benda same. Pastu amik Dayo pun, kena repeat balik 8 kali… so malam tu the famous words are big hideous smile, bragging and 50ringgit.

While waiting for Nilad, we bobo ourseleves in the car. Best gile! Keluar2 je semua dah bobo. Yang bestnye… I vomit before I could bobo myself. Hahaha. Kena bahan gila ngan zhaf. Babi!

We went into twentyone.. drink, dance, smoke, chat, chow. Then the famous words been used like more and more every fucking minute! I’m supposed to be pissed but later on I joined them making fun of it.

Everytime a race car lookalike wannabe passed by….. they will say “eleh hideous la wey! Gile bragging! 50 ringgit je!!!....”. hahaha then we laughed!

Everytime a hot chick passed by….. “amboi, braggingnye. Tak sedar diri hideous. 50 ringgit!”.

Everyword came out of our mouth, no matter what… mesti ade ayat tu. Cuba jangan brag! Hideous tau!.. 50 ringgit pun nak brag! Gile hideous. Tak hideous la macam ni wey! Kite kena brag! Baru la Nampak hideous! Takat 50 ringgit!! And so the more they say the more we laugh coz of that words. Semua dah bobo kot.

Sampaikan pakcik cucuk2 tu pun nilad ajar ayat fames tu. Haha. Oh btw, pastu kitrg gerak heritage semata2 nak makan cucuk2!

So that’s the story of a night we called Big Hideous Smile night.

BIG HIDEOUS SMILE Pt. 2

I’ve asked around about the hideous part so I can know what other ppl think about it. Whether I am right or I am wrong. I let them judge. And u know what I got? Jeng jeng jeng….

Imagine u are the birthday girl I’m writing about. Read this, and give me ur comment.

1. What do I feel if it’s me? tah… ok je.. ape yg ko nak aku comment ni?

ko tulis pasal birthday aku la kononnye.. so ko nak aku kate ko sweet la eh?

hehehe…

ok je..

2. tak la…. nampak sangat kot benda tu lawak..

kalau bace part tu je memang la rase cam ko serious.

tp kalau bace the whole article... obviously benda tu should not be an issue at all.

ko buat lawak kot!

3. hahaha.. u suh i pretend jadi yus?

ok.. dah pretend.

i tau la u buat lawak.. ok je.

come on la.... i kenal u dari sekolah memang u macam ni..

so anything so say about my face, my smile or even my lips yg u suke make fun with..

i tak kesah kot..

mmg u dah macam ni.

lagipun dalam blog tu... bukannye u kutuk die satu page!

actually i tak perasan pun pasal joke part tu sampai la u tanye...

i bace sekali dah lupe!

ala dont worry... if she takes it seriously, dont go with that type of friend!

bestfriends should know u better!

actually i rase u should stand on ur ground k babe?

dont think of it too much.

if u luv her, then work it out.

but seriously i dont think it was ur fault.

u deserve a better friend like me!! hihi

4. says:

takde apelaa

biasa je

poyo doh derang tuh

macam kau kutuk derang gile babi

padahal kau tgh cite something kau buat utk derang

kau sound je balik dodo

the way dia msg kau pon cam sial

gi mampos la derang tu

menyampah aku

takdela.....someone is writting a blog abt ur birthday....u should be proud

u reply to dod something yg tunjuk die tu bodoh ckp bende cam tu...

and y nak terasa cuz the whole purpose of the blog was about celebratin her birthday...

then kau ckp la..if dodo and yus nak kau edit jugk...kau akan edit

tapi derang patut feel ashamed of themselves for doing that

because if yus was me..i would just fuck t n feel happy anyway theres a blog about me

ape laaaa

padahal dalam fb... siap komen muke yus buruk

tade pape pun

5. pahal ngan ur friends? Selfish nye! Tu pun nak marah? Lawak kot….

6. ok i get the whole story part.
tp u guys gado ke ape nieeeeeee?

7. noooooo. mmg nampak joking kot?
y nak terasa? i x pahammmmm. thts y i x paham y tiba2 ada girls fight!
so meaning i'm not as dumb as i think laaaa. hahahaha.

8. i dok scan laaa kat ur blog for a part where the bday girl cancel sebab would rather be with her bf. haha. oh wait. thts my problem not urs. heee hee.
i tak faham. whn u say , seriously i dok scan for something worse. *garu garu kepala*
something more heavy and rumit. and some obscene language perhaps.

8. i've read it but sumhow my brain still refuses to process whatever it is that ur trying to communicate to me.
hahahah. dumb people language pls! :] i dnt getittttttt.

9. *garu garu kepala*
i wonder why we have to deal wth craps. like sara.
hahahaha. nak selit gak.
ah well, hormonoe do weird things

BIG HIDEOUS SMILE

So today nak ceriteeeeeeee la sikit pasal this two lovebirds ni. They are two people I used to call bestfriends. They claimed that they know me VERY WELL. So they thought that whatever I say and whatever I do, I must already know that it should be what they want to hear, and what they want to see. Dah pening? Let’s go on to the details.

The King and the Queen felt sooooooo hurt deeeeeply insideeeeeee, bleeding, dying, screaming, suffering!!!!!.................... [only the hurt part, the rest is exaggerated. hehe] because in my previous post, I wrote about celebrating the Queen’s surprise birthday plan, preparation and execution. But that wasn’t the issue that they’ve gone mad about. Instead of reading the big thing, the EFFORT of throwing her party, the SUSAH SENANG TOLONG KAWAN YG CELEBRATE SORANG2 PUNYE PASAL…… she focused on the big hideous smile that I joked in the article. Some of u may have read that part before I deleted it [by forced].

I can’t imagine there are stupid people like this. Ini dah memang gile babi bodoh sangat. If it was because I joked about ur mother, ur father…. I understand I have crossed the line. But if it’s because u cannot handle urself if someone said u have a big hideous smile, when it is toooo obvious that I was just joking…… u r just being selfish. If u want me to praise u in my blog, do ur own blog. I’m not going to do so.

YOU PROVOKED ME. U sent a message like I did something really fucked up! Like I killed ur life! U claimed that u know me VERY WELL. Ok… friends make mistakes. But how do u talk to ur friend about something ur’e unhappy about? Kau duduk depan rumah aku je… takkan la nak sound kat facebook jugak? That’s coward! Aku bukannye tak penah gado benda2 bodoh [tp tak sebodoh ni] dengan orang lain… especially close friends. Tak puas hati, cakap terus depan2! Nak kena ajar ke? K cani…

Dialog 1 : Wey, bole tak kau delete HIDEIOUS SMILE tu? ______ terase ar.

Dialog 2 : Weh kau pahal cakap HIDEIOUS SMILE camtu pasal aku? Dah2… delete!

Dialog 3 : Aku tak kire aku bagi kau 5 minit utk delete HIDEIOUS SMILE tu.

And banyak lagi….

But instead, u guys chose to send me a message in FACEBOOK like coward people do.

Seriously, I think these 2 have to act and behave like their age. If u’re too fragile, don’t find friends like my type… go find ppl like ur friends back in mrsm. Those pakai tudung, cakap saye awak tu… ha tu sesuaiiii sgt la kalau nak kawan. Lagi2 yang suke puji2 u cantik, u pandai n all shit u like.

By the way,

hideous smile – to describe how happy u are at that time. Hideous is used to explain ur happy surprised face is not pretty like when ur just happy n controlling urself.

Bragging – to explain how jealous I am when u say u just bought a dress from topshop.

50 ringgit? – lawak bodoh semata2…. Sape yg terase lagi la bodoh.

Bitch

No female is ever going to grow up, theyre always going to backstab and be bitches to one another.. it's just the way we roll

There's some people that shouldn't be on this earth, and I use to call them my friends.

Unfortunately, people argue all the time and this becomes more apparent as we get older. People have less reason to praise or compliment you the truth and more reason to argue with u and gain some personal benefit. At the end of the day, cherish friends who are honest and true to you and ignore those who bitch around you. They can be just casual friends, so u don't have to put so much effort into them.

some people they say things are not good

because they are not understood

acceptance is something i do not seek

I will not turn over a new leaf

cause I would rather be stubborn

if this means having no friends

I’d rather be alone

than being a part of your menggelabah society

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

I know…. Dah lambat seminggu baru nak wish. Hehe. What do I care, raya kan sebulan! So I’d like to apologize to all for being so cruel, so mean, so talkative and being too hyper than ur average level… most of all, I’m sorry again if u think I’m a bitch. Just the way I am. So live with it. Heeee!

Raya this year tak macam dulu. I say this year’s sucks (seconded by my fellow cousins). Maybe sebab half of our family yg kat jb especially tak balik kl… n cuzins yg married beraya blah laki2 diorang… so there was just me, mim, yana, jehan and lan celebrating with all the makciks and pakciks.

Our family tradition (mummy’s side) works like this, on the eve of raya.. all of us will gather at Maktok’s house in SS2, Kelana Jaya for buka puasa. They normally serve ketupat, rendang and all those typical raya food that night. I would be the only child in my family to attend the buka puasa at Maktok’s house while my other 2 brothers are busy with raya carol (takbir raya) at Atuk’s house (daddy’s side) far far away at Au2 Keramat tu ha. I chose to be at my Mum’s coz I have cuzins yg satu kepala more than daddy’s side. And usually we cuzins will dress to kill (casual outfit) on the eve coz that’s the only time we gather all the members from jb n kl. Haha. Weird. Oh and most of our family don’t really puasa on the eve. It’s like……….. the trend on every last day of puasa. Including the uncles and aunties.

Raya morning, we will all gather again at Maktok’s house and this is where the weird part u’d be interested in. Maktok will not serve any ketupat or rendang in the morning. She only serves roti canai and hot drinks instead. It has become like that since I was born.

After Raya prayer, kitorang pun berkumpul kat hall rumah Uncle Anjang will start our Raya tradition with his speech. Uncle Anjang is the host for every event in the family. Without him, we’ll be lost.

And so Uncle Anjang starts with…… “Kita bersyukur sekali lagi dapat berkumpul di hari raya bersama ayahanda dan bonda…..bla….bla…..bla…..”.

Then, doa by Tok Encik.

Then, some moral + motivation + crap speech about current issues in the family.

Eg; Cucu-cucu perempuan dinasihatkan menjaga batas perlakuan dan percakapan memandangkan usia yg semakin matang …..bla..bla…bla…

I hate it when things that they talked about bikin gua terase dalam baik punya. Sila jangan pakai baju ketat. Duh. The guilt trip thing isn’t working.

After that interesting speech, we will all make a really big circle for salam2 session. It starts with the uncles and aunties, followed by the children in every family. Usually the make up is ruined in this session. It’s very teary.

Then those who already have worked kena stay in the hall while the rest of us will line up outside waiting for our duit raya collection. The syarat is, who ever starts working will have to give out duit raya. No matter how young the person is and how old the person’s getting it is.

My mum’s family is big. Her siblings are 10 of them. The spouses, children, in laws, nephews and nieces….. I lost count. Majority of my cuzins are girls. Around 30 girls and only 5 boys.

Finally, after collecting duit raya, we will all start our convoy raya to every house in our family. We usually starts from KJ, Subang, Tropicana, Damansara, TTDI, Hartamas and my house will be the last. They usually say no to food and drinks at my house. Makes our work easier. Hehe.

Raya is fun, if the people you celebrate with every year are around. It becomes sux when these people suddenly changed the way it is.

Selamat Hari Raya!

My fav cuzins... Rihana, Miriam, Jehan and Razlan.
My fav nephews... Danial and Danish (GuGu).
My brother, Firhan (Adik) and Rizwan (Abang).
My family... noticed that Daddy is not wearing brown coz he insisted to be special! Followed by Adik, his sidekick.

Yus Birthday

So it was Yus’s birthday. Dodo told me he won’t be here celebrating yus 24^th birthday coz he has to go to JB doing shit stocktaking on the day itself. I called Mim and told her about Yus birthday and try to plan something with her. This is to make sure that Mim will definitely come without giving stupid reasons like, “aku period pain la” because of her laziness. And so we plan Yus birthday.

My plan is to bring Yus somewhere, dress nicely and dinner full with gossips and mengumpat. I wanted to celebrate it like the way we did when we were kids… sticking the pony tail, bashing the donkey, treasure hunt, musical chair………. It’s ramadhan. Since we are party lovers, I thought of kidnapping her to a club, strip her, make her drunk with special flame Lamborghini, and sing the birthday song!............... again, it’s ramadhan. Oh oh I did think of something with guy stripper too! Yes, ramadhan. Guy strippers may be on off duty for the whole month due to the fasting season.

On the day itself, we worked on the plan. Mim made the table reservation by calling a number which is not in service. Meanwhile, I tried to gather as many Yus friends as I could to make it merrier. My plan to order birthday cupcakes for Yus was ruined because the number that I got cannot be reached after calling 80times. So I went out at noon with Jibot trying to find a cake for Yus. The plan was also ruined by Jibot because instead of looking for a birthday cake, we ended up shopping raya until 4pm. Salah Jibot. We went straight from Sg Wang to Palate Palette to make the reservation. Then we headed to Great Eastern Mall coz I still don’t have the fucking birthday cake!!!! It was 6 and we were stuck in the traffic. Nilad has been calling me non stop babbling bout the time. I was supposed to pick up Mim, Nilad, Dayo, Zirra and Yus because everyone wanted to carpool. I rushed to the party plan store in GE and bought a pack of sparkling candles and a kiddies’ princess crown. I couldn’t find the cake! Actually there were a few.. but then I couldn't afford to buy 1.

I rushed back home with Jibot’s crazy driving (his mother called like 12thousand times), got dressed, put on very very little make up, called Mim and Yus to pick me and Nilad… and so we went off to Palate Palette. Nilad, Dayo and Zirra went separately to buy the birthday cake and card. So glad non of us actually puasa that day coz we were very very late! On the way there, Yus kept asking us bout the place we were taking her. Mim kept telling her we are going to take her to the mamak., and sometimes the food court. Yus face changed, but she knew we are going to take her somewhere nice.

I can see Yus big smile when we arrived. We had dinner, gossips and smokes as much as we could. I forced Yus to wear the crown coz she’s the birthday girl! As soon as we finished dinner, Nilad went out to the front of the restaurant and light up the birthday cake. We took Yus outside and sang the birthday song for her.

That night was fun. Even with just a small group of friends, we really had fun.

P/s: Apologies to all for the harsh words. I just love doing that. Sorry for being such a terrible bitch. Haha!

The Break Up

it's been a while since i broke up with him.

People may wonder what happened in our relationship that caused such big decision. My first thought was to keep it as a secret for as long as I can. I thought that I would be the one who will tell out everyone about ‘the break up’ instead of him but my thoughts were wrong as he became the first to tell the whole world about it by declaring it in facebook and letting people in our network read about it!!! Facebook! Again… facebook!!!!!!!!

Ok.. so I have no choice but to admit it when people started their ‘concerns’ by asking me zillion of questions. And everyone knows that people will not ask the boyfriend, they will ask me! Because they think that girls are easier talking about that damn thing!

Things weren’t the way I thought it would be. Gossips spread instantly. Rumour about shits. Things that I heard was really heartbreaking (yes, I am sensitive like any other girls too). They were talking about me getting back to my ex, me wanting his money, me fooling him, his friends celebrated the break up with joy and happiness like it was the day Malaysia’s declared independent, things like… padan muke back to your fucking face, Lydia.., etc.

People don’t know what happened in our relationship. They hardly saw us around them. People judge with no observation made. They weren’t there when we were together. They were there when we were not together. They didn’t know how much I loved him and how much he loved me. They didn’t know what we did for each other. All the things they knew were that we had a fight, we argued, we had a time off, we were not together, we went out without each other, we went out with our exes, we slut around, we hated each other………. and from there, they made their own assumptions. These people sucks lah.

In case you wonder when am I going to tell the story behind the break up after reading this whole shit… sorry guys, this shit is about me and him. I will not tell you what really happened, what made me broke up this relationship and what went wrong… because some of you might be the people listed in my ‘suckers group’ who would definitely condemn my story by making up another story which leads to more stories twisted like your own pubic hair. So darlings, stop reading here if you feel like it is you I am talking about.

I am really really upset with the negative responses I got from this break up. It upsets me more when it involves close friends. Friends since school. Friends who claimed my bestfriends, once. But I think the more I care about it, the bigger the damage will be. I don’t need this type of friends. I don’t really should be bothered by what they said because I know I am the only one who know it better. Whatever they said will not harm me. Because I am me! I don’t care babeh!! I will take this advantage of being single flirting and bitching with your darling~~ beware of what I am gonna do. I am such a revengeful person. Muahahahaha!!!! Kill kill!! Die die!!