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sunday boredom

Chicken Pox

Yesterday i went to klcc with h coz he wanted to buy a zara jacket he thought he could DIE instantly if he doesn't get it by that day. while trying on the jackets, i noticed some rashes on his cheeks and both arms. i was like, bbbbbbbbbbb apeeee tuuuuuuuuuuuu???????? *panic panic*.

h has been having itchiness mostly on his legs since sunday. we thot twas just mosquitoes bites. to my surprise, h didnt feel any itchy during shopping (i wonder why) but the moment i asked him about the rashes (and panic), my boyfriend became paranoid too. over paranoid i must say. he was walking back and forth, wander without direction clumsily, awkwardly til i have to stop him "b, dah..dah.. stop it!"

i stood there, staring quite a distance from him. chicken pox! it must be chicken pox! I'VE NEVER HAD CHICKEN POX MY WHOLE LIFE, PLEASE DONT COME ANY CLOSER!! and i didnt let him get closer to me til we get back and hurried to see the doctor.

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it wasn't chicken pox. allergy. he has allergy to dust, and animals mostly bird feathers (heh??). few years ago he had to get a shot because his mother bought a new sofa and cushions set where he slept the whole night there and woke up pink as a pig the next morning.

i'm soooo scared i'll get chicken pox at this age or older. I DEFINITELY HAVE TO GET THE VACCINE ASAP!


"Chickenpox or chicken pox is a highly contagious illness caused by primary infection with varicella zoster virus (VZV).^[1] It usually starts with vesicular skin rash mainly on the body and head rather than at the periphery and become itchy raw pockmarks which mostly heal without scarring.

Chickenpox is a highly infectious disease that spreads from person to person by direct contact or by air from an infected person's coughing or sneezing. Touching the fluid blister can also spread the disease."


this reminds me of a funny story about us when H1N1 was more popular than Paris Hilton. miyan performed at urbanscapes last year, during the peak time of H1N1. few days after the events we were informed that some of the people who went there were infected. and...... we became paranoid - because miyan performed, and spent 24/7 with us. I AM VERY EASY TO BECOME PARANOID. h's level of paranoid is usually more than mine and miyan's paranoid is mental. one thing that miyan's paranoid of, he'll make alllll of us panic for no reason. it's chaotic.

because of miyan, THE THREE OF US RUSHED TO HKL TO GET THE VACCINE. we were soooooo paranoid! when strangers came near us, we ran away. there was an uncle at the counter next to us.. he asked h about the time and accidentally touched h's arm. oh god... u wont believe how h reacted after that. he became over-paranoid and menyumpah2 pakcik tu. kesiannn die.

the hospital sent a guy in charge of H1N1 case to us. belum pape lagi diorang ni dah tanye macam2 soalan serentak. haih. paranoid, paranoid. hahahahhaa. the guy said if we didnt have any fever we cant get the vaccine coz its limited. so we went back..... disappointed. and laughed like crazy the next day. thank god we're okay.

I NEED A NEW PHONE, DESPERATELY

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my phone is crazy. sometimes when people call, i couldn't understand a thing they say because the line will be stuck and breaking up every 3 seconds. so bile orang call, it'll sound like,

"hey ____ kat ____ ni ___ datang ____ sini ______ pun _____ "

sile explain. macam mane aku nak paham? i've to ask them the same questions about 10 times! n i still dont get it! they could hear me well but i dont. so when i ask them to repeat, its useless. dah macam orang retard aku jerit2 tanye benda same. ha?? haaa?? ape die??? err.. haaa?

sometimes the text messages in my inbox got mixed up with the dates. i delete off all the msgs, but the next time check my inbox, a text msg from last 40 years i dont even know exist would appear! urgh! the other day that same shit happened. i got a text msg from a friend saying "kite gerak kul 11.30. dah siap i amik u". i was like......... ehhhh? malam ni ade apeeeee????????? how come i dont know anything??? then my friend replied.... about the same question i asked. we're both confused. she checked her sent items, nope... no text to my number. in fact, we haven't been in contact for quite a long time. my phone suke perbodoh2kan owner die. celake.

once, i got into a fight with h because he checked my inbox n the same shit happened again. yang best nye content tu die yg send but the name changed to another person. tak mengamuk pulak la kan laki aku. nasib baik h jenis yg tak reti delete sms langsng. we checked his sent items and proved him that was his and we should send my phone to see the psychiatrist. mental.

so now im begging all of u to buy me a new mobile phone. consider this as a charity. and since i'm broke, this is u, helping the poor. i'll provide u with a certificate for participating in this charity. u will not be forgotten til the end of my generations! ur a legend! mwah!

Quick Weekend

h got a new audio player for his car and new set of babe. so bye bye old babe, say hi to the new generation. in case ur wondering what babe im referring to, babe is the name we gave for that thing u use to roll up ur car windows. the 1st, broke. 2nd, tercampak keluar when h was driving on a highway and 3rd babe couldnt function well, dah haus. since our last babe is a legend and we loveee it so much, we wrapped it with a big ribbon n keep it as a memory of this car. haha. sungguh emotional.

i hate sundays. it means the end of enjoying holiday with my boy. i think this weekend passed by so quickly i still haven't had enough time with him. thank god we live so near i can still see him after work.

on friday we went to barsonic AGAIN. they've fallen in love with that place so much. the boys are really crazy over the music, its their genre. oh and of course, hot chicks everywhere. but most of all, we had so much fun there, just friends. thats what a party should feel like, to enjoy with friends more than anything else.

there was one incident i couldnt stop laughing at til now. i've to take 2 mins off the keyboards to write about this story. hahahahahahhahahahahahahaha. ok. when we were walking back to our car, we had to cross the street. and since that time was the end of all clubs in kl, the traffic was considered heavy for 3 o'clock in the morning. we waited at the traffic light to cross the street on the zebra crossing. when its green, MIYAN dengan tak senonohnye pegi lintas jalan tu macam orang tempang! dah la jalan macam tu, slow pulak tu. i mean, really slow. orang cacat nye style tapi klaka coz instead of terhenjut2.... miyan jalan seblah normal, seblah lagi tendang2 mase jalan. hahahahahhahahahaa. AND ALL THE CARS ACTUALLY STOPPED! both sides. and sumpah lame gile diorang stop because miyan punye lembab berjalan mcm org cacat. and usually when he does stupid things like this, mesti ade kroni2 macam ali or hadri yg join. but to my surprise, the one who was 'helping' him was dodo! dodo pegang miyan macam die betul2 cacat. he was holding miyan so hard like a baby n was very careful in case budak cacat tu jatuh. hahahahahahaha. worse, dah sampai kat traffic light hujung tu die boleh lompat2 n jalan laju2 macam biase! macam harammmmmmmmmm!!!! hahahahahahahahahhahaha. haihhh i still cant stop laughing! me n ilani dah siap tutup muke kat blakang tu.

we all headed to holiday villa coz ali got a room there for after party. by the time we arrived, semua dah pancit. penat from barsonic punya pasal. so there wasnt any party pun.

Saturday

had lunch with the girls- ska, ayu, azielah. im having really bad PMS these days so i could blow people off over small matter. we were having lunch at hometown yong tau foo, ampang. its my favourite n i go there a lot either with h or friends. i was really pissed off with a worker there because she was mumbling things we couldnt hear when we asked to move to another table. thank god my friends were there so i could control myself a bit in front of them. if they weren't there i swear i would slap that girl as hard as i could as fast and as many i would! h was calming me with some stuff he whispered i couldnt hear but i took it as a yes to stop every action i've had in my head. KALAU TAK NAK KERJA MACAM NI, CARI KERJA LAIN! TAKNAK LAYAN ORANG, PEGI JADI CLEANER! bodoh.

after lunch we went straight to holiday villa. lepas makan, swimming. bagus la tu. i cant because im having my period. im sooooo jealous of them swimming in there on a really hot day. it was tempting tho but i rather not. h and the boys were really funny with all the stupid things they did and tried to attempt. haha. after that we watched movie marathonnnnnnn!!

at night, ilani threw a birthday party for her friend nurissa. many people came and most of them i.dont.know.at.all. haha. i was begging h n miyan to talk to me coz i had no one to talk to and didnt understand most of the others' conversations. i was quiet, at a party. ha ha. anyway we had to leave early becoz h gotta work on sundayyyy.


SUNDAY

h didnt go to work after all. he slept at my place but went back early in the morning. he was supposed to work from 10am - 2pm. i thought he went to work so i waited til 2 to text him and got a call from his house right away. i was like, haaaa? u tak pegi then what did u do since u go back just now? - tido. he left my house at 8, i thought he was going to get ready for work as soon as he reach home but instead, he went straight to bed. haih. u better give good explanation tomorrow baby.

we watched movie after lunch. Percy Jackson's not too bad tho. i should have read the books first. i knew the books since last year but refuse to buy it because i thought its damn heavy. i guess i was wrong. it fits my 12 years old brain well.

eventho h spent time with me til midnight, n i've been sticking to him since friday night... i still feel its not enough and i want moreeeee timeeeeee with him!!!

I'm Just Not That Into You

and h's saikoness has affected me to become saiko as well. tadaaaa~ there's a new saiko in town.

h's skank ex-gf whom i've met once in a club like a month ago is a total idiot. i was on a girls night out (plus h n john) when we bumped into each other. she's a friend of my friend's cousin. confuse? ok so a girl in my group has a friend in her group. simple as that. i allowed h to say hi to her n h was being so nice, pulled the girl to me n introduced her. thank u for pulling her to me instead of me going to her. but that was just it. hi and bye!

days after that i got 'exclusive' news from my friend telling me stories about myself like im a big uitm superstar now. haha. ok exaggeration. she told me that, lyd name kau busuk gile kat budak2 uitm tu. i'm like.... ha? what did i do?

apparently these girls are passing words that i'm the one who caused h's brain damage. hahahaha. said, i was the one who influenced h into drinking n clubbing n shitting. I ROSAKKAN HADRI. woohooooo~ saye sungguh gempak. i dont know how they came up with this but i assumed it was because of all the tag photos in fb, i was always next to him. haih. I KNEW HADRI IN A PARTY. he was already THAT when i hangout with him back then. kalau tak tau, sile tanye. buat research dulu..... baru buat conclusion. lecturer tak ajar? oh, budak fashion ye? tak blaja buat paperwork? reti menjahit je? not.an.excuse. everyone has to know this. even if ur not studying, its general knowledge la.

nvm, i didnt even bother with that. but what pissed me off was the other stories from the skank herself. how could she tell people about h's weaknesses and personal stories that u know u shud've just kept it to urself. dah la kecoh kat semua org, u even told my friend who's a totally stranger to urself! im not mad bcoz she's talking about my bf, im mad because u've crossed the line! even if i dont know u n h, u should never tell those stuff to friends and strangers. this is between u two. guys have ego too, n guys are more proud of it than us. ur so stupid u know that? tak baik la buat mcm tu. i hate my ex bf as well but there are just some things that i will not say even to my bestfriends. i still know whats personal and whats not. stupidstupidstupiddouchebag.

and now i'm curious. after spreading all the bad things about us.... suddenly u added me on fb? woah. tryna be friends with me or stalk me? i accepted because i want u to see that my love life is SO MUCH BETTER THAN URS. maybe ur mad because we didnt say anything after what u did. u are not my concern at all. anything u do, buang mase je layan. seriously, try harder.

h deleted her off his friends list as a respect to our relationship. he wants to gain my trust (which i do) and believes that having an ex on the list is not a good idea after all. so this girl cant access h's fb anymore n she has to stalk me only from now on. couple of days later, she added h AGAIN. nampak sgt kau ni asyik tgk fb bf aku kan? haha. i know, i set all tagged photos private. stalkers have to go to my bf's fb to see those photos. too bad, he changed the settings already. bye bye stalker.

just now her fb status was on my news feed. dont know why dont know how.

"_______ still love someone even he's not ur mine anymore...."

as ska quoted - "before declaring your love, double check your grammar".

and h's - "she can barely speaks english. she only use english like, i nak makan".

nvm about that. but are u referring to my bf? if u do, u better watch out. ur trashiness, lower-class status, poor hygiene, flakiness, and a scrawny, pockmarked sort of ugliness is far beyond my concern. i dont giv a shit about people like u. ur not a threat for me n the only thing im worried about is how ur looks and brain - degrading me. its an insult to have a 'competitor' like u.

no wonder h dumped u. i think ur acting like this because he didnt give a shit when u begged so many times. u screwed up. accept it. he's mine now. an advise, FIND A PERSON OF YOUR STANDARD. but if u insist to go higher, change urself. siti nurhaliza can make it without even know the difference between nipple n dimple. who knows u might be like her too!

p/s: a fashionista is labeled by people, mostly designers and journalists. u dont call ur self a FASHIONISTA. ur embarassing the whole fashion design industry. im surprised the way u bragged about fashion like its ur life but u looking at ur part time work photos at a factory. minah kilang... another insult for me.

snapshots

teh ais cincau?

love triangle

hihihi

miyan the beach boy - so tanned!

hihihi

School Holiday

firhan

i miss school. i miss school breaks, the tak sedap canteen food, bitchy teachers, nonsense rules. i miss everything about it!

my baby brother is having a school break - CNY. so he's living at my house now, just the 2 of us. i think he's enjoying it a lot because i allow him to do everything n not doing anything. he doesnt have to do chores and spend most of his time with friends.

yesterday, he called me from my dad's house asking a favor to send him to PAVILION. i was surprised! adik aku nak pegi pavi? dengan sape? friends, he said. WOW. this is his first time! (i think). his bestfriend came from sg buloh to meet up with him n other friends. this boy used to be his closest friend in class before he moved to another school.

so okay la, i picked him up and send him to pavi. on the way there, i was 'asked' to pick up his other friend at the LRT station to go together. while driving to fetch his friend, firhan was telling me how happy he is bcoz daddy gave him rm50 for a day out. hahahahahaha. i remember those days when i first got big bucks for an outing. sooo cute seeing how happy he was. of course la kan, duit blanje sekolah 2 ringgit je. just because nak keluar to a mall, dapat rm50. budak mane tak excited. i just smiled at him and thought (tunggu la kau dah besar nanti bile dapat rm50 mesti kau bising kat daddy sebab tak cukup!).

on the way there i gave him some tips about budgeting. go eat at a familiar fast food u guys know, like KFC. even the food court there is expensive for schoolboys like u guys. in case they want to experience drinking at coffee shops, i taught him how to buy a drink there - dont expect self service, go to the counter, order a frap, pay n wait at the other counter. he was so excited and asked soooo many questions! takut punya pasal. hahahaha so cute!! at the end, he said he doesnt want to go to coffee shops. malu. hahahaha. yea la, all this time we parents buy everything for him kan.

then after dropping off at pavi, i helped h looking for a workshop to service his car. cuti cny i guess, semua workshops tutup. kesian dia. we searched all the places we know n only 1 shop opens, but provides only standard service. kalau nak check2 problem we have to wait coz those mechanics are on leave. now i realized how susah it is kalau CNY. coz we always go to chinese. but yg tak paham, kenape melayu pun tutup? tanak bisnes ke? haih.

at 5pm i went back to pavi to picked him up. i was waiting in my car at the taxi area next to True Fitness and opposite Topman. so i told him that i was outside, right across Topman and told him to find the boutique. i thot he didnt know topman. surprise, surprise, he knows andddddddd he's actually in the boutique. wow. ok, i guess his friends are just shop-hopping instead of shopping. haha.

then i saw him. walking straight to my car with his friend who's double the size of his height (all of his friends are really really tall to compare to his height). fyi, my brother is 15. but he is so small he looks like 12. i'm serious. its not just the height. the face is still immature enough to tell he's 15. so when he was walking so cute to my car, i noticed a GREEN shopping bag.


i menjerit in the car okay.

i was so shocked to see topman's bag in his hand. i mean, all his life, everything he wears, everything, kitorang yg belikan. either my parents, my abang or me. never in his life to buy it on his own. i was so surprised, happy, excited like its will never happen to him. i know he'll go thru that phase someday. but its a shocked! imagine ur seeing a 12 year old boy who's soooo small carrying a topman's bag. hahahahahahahaha.

he bought a t-shirt, size XS. luckily it fits him well. "ni kite nye first black t-shirt". awwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!! my baby brother is all grown up. like how a girl should have a black dress. i guess its the same with boys. black. hahahaha. he said his friend wears topman - top to toe except for his converse shoes. he wants to follow his friend step by step.

this is how it started. according to him, his friend is topman freak. when his friend wanted to shop in topman, he asked my brother to buy something too because he's so malu to shop alone. so my brother, clueless as he is, took a tour in the shop n caught on a basic v neck T with buttons. since he didnt use his money that my dad gave him besides buying a soft drink earlier, he decided to buy that t-shirt. then he saw a nice pair of jeans. but the smallest size is 27. he said his school pants size is 26 (hahahahahahahhaa. so cute, comparing it with ur school pants). he took the pants to the fitting room thinking, y not just try.. who knows he might fit that jeans. sadly, when he went to the fitting room, the retail person said, "tak payah la try seluar tu. besar tu, tak muat pun". KURANG AJAR. MANE TAK SEDIH ADIK AKU YG BARU 1ST TIME NAK SHOPPING SENDIRI NI. really, he was very upset with that. but he didnt mind it that much coz he knows he doesnt have enough money to buy it. he wanted to try n see how it looks n maybe tell daddy to buy it. at least he was happy he got his t-shirt.

i was really pissed off with the way the retail person said to him. if i was there, i think i might just slap the person's face n ask him/her to apologize to my brother. u can't stop ur customers from trying. dont judge. this boy may be the minister's son (ecehhh). yea but stupid retailers have to learn some manners.

after sending his friend, firhan quickly change into his new tee in the car. hahaha. so so cute.

i took him to a kopitiam. his first time too. he was like 'woahhh'. pointing at the menu and asked, "toast ni pagi je ke boleh order?" hahahaha. ni bukan mcd dik. he really liked the kaya butter toast. its everyone's favourite anyway.

todayyyy, firhan woke me up at 10.30 n asked me to send him to his friend's house. early in the morning??? urghhhh. they're doing this english study group, ORAL. hahaha. i wonder how it goes? speaking english with ur friends seems like a cute group work. then he has futsal in the evening. expect me to pick him up at his friend's house and send him to the futsal court (n then i go back home) and when he's done, i have to pick him up again.

1 thing i can't tolerate. ur 15! u can find ur way to go to places on ur own! lrt ade, bas ade... n i know ur loaded, get a cab!! tak nak. in his small head, he thinks that wherever and whenever he wants to go, he always have us to send him. like, no early notice! tau2 suruh hantar. tanak hantar takpe, kite suruh daddy hantar. then tak pasal2 i get a call from daddy asking me y cant i send firhan? u kan tak buat ape kat rumah, takkan tak boleh hantar firhan? urghhhhhhhhhhh!!! tak pasal2 i have to ulang alik so many places just for him. nak feed him lunch n dinner lagi. asyik2 kena drive him like my boss.

firhan u should thank God for having a sister who loves u so much.

p/s: my brother is among those who types LiKe tHiz

Mix and Match

simple guide to what to and how to wear. especially those junk in my wardrobe i have no more idea what to do.

E is for Effy by englishroses featuring Kain tops

2010 Fashion Trend Predictions by ❤✿PaintHead featuring Juicy Couture accessories

Rats Leggings by BellaMarie featuring Vanessa Bruno tops

999 by grustno. featuring Carvela shoes

Faux Fur Vest Trend! by ღ*Modiste Naive*ღ (New Contest) featuring Miss Selfridge shoes

Chic Rock by shoptillyadrop_ featuring Alexander Wang vests

Your honesty is like a back that hides a knife. by Aleksandra. featuring James Perse t shirts

Sunset... by Girley featuring Carvela shoes

. by MyChanel featuring Alexander McQueen shoes

No matter who you are by Aitana Reimóndez♥ featuring Brian Atwood shoes

Celebrity street style : Ashley Olsen by Fashionmint(Catching up & Busy) featuring Gucci sunglasses

everyday and twice on sundays by *digitalgodess* NEW CONTEST featuring Lanvin shoes

Taylor Momsen- Style Star by ♫☠Knives and Pens☠♫ featuring Alexander McQueen

STOP & THINK! by tuchi(: (BUSY) featuring Christian Louboutin shoes

NARS Makes You Shine by Juliet ♥ featuring Betsey Johnson shoes

Wet Seal Style by muslimgirl♥ featuring Acne jeans

ohne Titel by **julia**audrey contest featuring Yves Saint Laurent shoes

nat by EleonoraVanDerWoodstock featuring Christian Louboutin shoes

Celebrity Street Style : Blake Lively by Fashionmint(Catching up & Busy) featuring Harajuku Lovers shoes

Untitled by 22 Acacia Avenue featuring Monsoon bags

Heading West For Summer... by sourcat featuring Balenciaga bags

Celebrity street style : Lindsay Lohan by Fashionmint(Catching up & Busy) featuring Aristoc tights

Celebrity Style: Lindsay Lohan. by elizabeth says relax featuring Giuseppe Zanotti shoes

Serena in style by Karine Minzon Wilson featuring Gucci bags

Bohemian Daily by sourcat featuring Carvela shoes

Black Or White '09 by BellaMarie featuring Marc Jacobs bags

Just being myself... by mylovelycat featuring Angel Jackson bags

My Valentine

kinda sucks. really.

after the fight with h, i apologized n explained everything to him - that he got it all wrong. it wasn't my intention to upset him. i just like making friends. thats who i am. i guess he knew he was wrong too n we settled it.

HE WANTS ME TO CHANGE MY PHONE NUMBER. HE WANTED TO DRAG ME TO MAXIS THAT DAY.

i think its ridiculous just to change my number for 1 stranger. i was still mad at him n he should control his paranoid. luckily i didnt go to maxis n change my number. HELLOOOO i just got a job. still waiting for the HR to process my documents. how can people reach me if i change my number n there's a lot more than that to be worried of.

he asked me out that evening. i declined.

he asked me out again later that night - to party with friends. i accepted.

he still had my phone that time n called my house phone to reach me. told me to get ready by 10.30. so i followed.

11 pm - still no news. i called him n asked what time will the rest of them be ready to go out?

"oh, u tak tau ke? malam ni cancel la. tak jadi pegi. tapi since u dah siap takpe la nanti kite keluar je la gi mane2 k. japgi amik u lepas abes main game ni"

AKU SUPER FUCKED UP DAH SIAP N NOBODY TELLS ME ANY SHIT. he took my phone, he should be the one to inform me about that earlier! of course no one can reach me, only he does!

screw it. from a bit upset i became a madwoman. i was yelling, shouting, screaming n spit everything out to him eventho i know i shouldn't be saying those hurtful things to him. from our issue to everything on earth. i just went crazy.

he was trying hard to calm me down n talked about everything but whenever he said something it just doesnt make any sense to me anymore. in fact, he became more annoying when he tried to tell me that he was right in everything n he did nothing wrong.

there goes my valentine's eve. when the clock strikes 12, i was still crying. i couldnt even let him get near me when he came to my house to 'talk'.

it wasnt resolved like it should but since i was too tired to argue any longer, i just ignore n let it be. coz no matter how much i tell him, he will say things that's more annoying and his attitude of not losing is just too much for me to handle.

after few hours of silence, i've calmed and eventho its not settled, ignoring is the only thing i could think of for MY own sake.

Salah Orang

when partying at barsonic last night, a guy i recognized somewhere in my crazy brain walk pass me. then i was like pulling him from going farther and excitedly said, HAIIIII SEPET!!!

then he was like, EH HAIIII!! HOW ARE YOU? IM SORRY I FORGOT UR NAME.

me: LYDIA LA. EH MANE NICKY? U DGN SAPE?

him : I SORANG JE NI. I MMG SLALU DTG SINI SORANG LA.

saiko. dtg club sorang. watever.

after hai2... he went to the bar n i continue whateveriwasdoinglah. i went to the ladies room n when i got back to our table, i was surprised to see him there with his bucket of beer on our table. so i just chill la kan. the more the merrier orang kata. all my friends were cheering with him. so i see no threat there.

so all of us party. drink. take photos. dance. and jump.

i had a break of jumping non stop with my killing heels. it aches like hell til now ok. i sat next to this guy and started chatting with him.

me : EH SEPET, U BUAT APE SKARANG?

him : PANGGIL I LIZZARD. KAT CENFAD ORANG PANGGIL I LIZZARD. I KEJE KAT DAMANSARA SKRG. EH U DARI COURSE APE EH?

me : ............................................................... (diam kejap. a lot to process). I BUKAN CENFAD, I LIMKOKWING.

from that moment, i know i've had the wrong person. n after chatting a while (which i continue pura-pura believing he is sepet).. it's confirmed HE IS NOT SEPET. and he too got the wrong person. he didnt actually know me. but we didnt say it to each other. instead, we just buat bodo about it n party. but deep inside i know both of us dah malu gile! hahahahaha.

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last night i've had too much of Long Island Tea and i was partying like crazy with every strangers who came across my sight. i dont remember how many of 'new friends' i've made there but i do remember this 1 particular person. a korean guy.

he was very sweet? no he was being friendly to everyone. i saw him standing alone smiling n looking at the crowd like, he wanted to join them so much but he was so afraid! i was dancing nearby n he.just.looked.at.me. so i thot i wanted to be nice to this poor guy. kesiannn kau. macam anak kena tinggal ngn parents kat shopping mall. hahaha. i took my drink n cheers with him. introduced him to my friends and party together. he was a bit shy but u know la my bf kalau tgk orang macam ni lagi la dia become aggressive kat org tu. so this korean guy was 'stuck' with our group. the boys wont let him sit still. it was fun.

sometime around the closing time, he came n talked to me. his english wasn't so good i barely understand him. he said about me n h are a very fun couple n that he'd like to party with us again, with me n h. so i was like, yeah no prob! so he asked for my number so he could ask us out again. i was like, oh okay... n i gave him my number.

in the car otw back, he texted me about nice meeting u blabla. h grabbed my phone n started questioning things like, who is this, how did he get ur no? y did u give him? etc. HE WAS FUCKING PISSED! i was like, did....i.....do.....anything....wrong? BOMMMM (h's mengamuk effects. ala u know la kan orang mengamuk cane. im too lazy to type everything).

the point here is... i thot that this guy asked for h's number as well THATS Y I GAVE HIM MY NUMBER. i dont simply give out my number to ppl i just met, especially at clubs. basically from what i see in this korean guy, his good-boy attitude... i dont see any threat there. h's making everything big deal. i get it he was drunk but he was overreacting about all this. its a small shit that ppl dont even give a shit about.

thats too much. imagine we had a fight in a car full of friends and everyone else was keeping their mouths shut n hear everything we argued about. i am really upset with the way h handles things like this. dia maki2 depan friends. totally over the limit. i kept my mouth shut all the way. everyone was listening to h screwing me.

when we arrived at my house, h asked for my phone and took it away with him. so i've been living without a phone for a day now. at 6 just now he called, instead of apologizing and cakap baik2 as a start... the 1st thing he said was, DO YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY TO ME?

i was soooooo mad inside! i just reply SORRY. n he was nagging like my mother while i just listened. i am sooo upset with his way, and really really mad at him for treating me like this. i've been so nice to him! i trust him in this relationship but he doesn't. im really sick of this HE IS ALWAYS RIGHT, I AM ALWAYS TO BE BLAMED. i must always be the one to say sorry (even if its not my fault). even a slight mistake i've made is kinda like the-end-of-the-relationship argument. i have to apologize, beg him and cheer him. this is tiring.

Oh No Oh Yes

1. miyan's back in townnnn!! yes, n he's driving me crazy with all his plans. n since im the only one available, i have to entertain him, accompany him everywhere. thank god he's a fun guy.. if someone else asked me out 24/7 like him, and boring... i'm sure gonna switch off my phone. i cant deal going out just the 2 of us with a boring person. lagi2 kalau 24/7!

2. i went crazy at cotton on because of their CNY sale. buy 1 get another for 50%. sejam i huru hara dalam kedai tu tak tau nak pick which one. i dont think i looked at everything. i.just.went.nuts.

3. i'm looking for a new hairstyle. yeke? haha. tak la, i just wanna trim my hair coz i dont want it short. i am being very patience with this slow grow! oh, n im looking for a colour that suits me. no more blondie. im OLD enuf for that dramatic colour.

4. valentine is near. i still have no idea what to do. maybe we'll celebrate it with friends. its more fun that a candle light dinner. booooring!

5. h wants me to change my number. soon. last night he checked my phone contact list! oh god... i had to explain every single person to him. that's my classmate. thats my uncle. thats my old friend. thats...er... i dont remember. ok u can delete that one. haiyohhhh.

6. we're moving in this april!!!! but i dont know where yet. ngahaha. tempat pun tak cari lagi dah kecoh.

7. my mum is bragging to me about Paris, like she's staying at a fashion district and hard rock cafe 5 mins aways from her hotel n a cinema at the back of her hotel. and all the hot ass French guys there.

i made up the last part. kidding.

8. my dad just adopt a 17 year old sabah girl. haih. tak cukup keee ade sorang anak perempuan mcm ni punya susah nak jage? cant believe it. my lil brother has been bitching a lot on the phone with me.

i got a job

yes. starting on 22nd February, i'll be working with Dentsu, a japanese advertising agency located at Damansara.

let's party!

Anniversary Disaster

sorry i've been keeping this post as draft for so long i forgot to publish it. haha.

my anniversary sucks. i mean, the dinner. y? coz h made a reservation at Jogoya, Starhill. and....

1. apparently the night that we went to was the last day of their promotion. 2nd person pay only rm19.90. so imagine the long q from jogoya to the next 3 or 4 shops next to it.

2. eventho we made reservation, those jakun people also made reservations. so even if we wanted to pay the 88bucks per person instead of taking that promo, we still have to q. ok, we took the promo price.

3. 9.30pm to 10.30pm we waited til we finally got in.

4. MENYESAL PEGI BUFFET! when hadri sat, i took off for food. n it continued the whole time we were there. the only moment we get to talk to each other was during smoking break. "so, how was ur day?". n we stared at each other like something wasnt right about that.

5. buffet food was fantastic! there's about 20-30 dished in a table. imagine a restaurant full with more than 10 tables of all sorts of food. japanese, western, thai, steamboat, grill, bbq, pasta... u name it. the desserts were crazy as well. all haagen dasz ice cream, new zealand ice cream, puddings, cookies, cakes, choc fountain.... gile babi best.

we had a trauma of going to buffet eversince. h gave me a lovely card with touching words n a bit of jokes innit. and an aromatherapy set of beautiful candles and a small lamp. haha. very thoughtful of him. never thought he would buy such things for me.

on friday we checked in Holiday Villa for a short honeymoon. hahahaha. 3 days 2 nights. by the 2nd night we were tired of each other already n called up some friends to join us there. but anyhow, i really enjoyed my anniversary at the hotel. just the 2 of us. of course b4 we got tired of each other. haha.

MY MUM WENT TO PARIS FOR A MONTH LEAVING ME WITH ONLY A SURVIVAL KIT. how cruel is that? #@$%yhuii#$%67890l#$#%^&8!!! she's touring qatar - paris - london - qatar n god knows where else could she be in this 1 month there. kerja la konon. she even gave me a list full with things i have to to when she's not around! i tell u, by the 2nd week, i'll be dead... hungry... n lack of entertainment.

Kiss Kiss Jelly Ball

yesterday i was stopped by a police roadblock bcoz of speedtrap. fuck! since whennnn ade speedtrap kat duke??? or i assume its at duke la kan coz i used that road n took hartamas exit. i know hartamas police memang suke roadblocking ni. asyik2 roadblock. but what surprised me was the speedtrap. after lunch. haih. so since my plat number ade kat dalam list yg diorang pegang tu haaa ape lagi la kan. kena pull over la. thank god masa police tu check my ic n while waiting for me to 'cari' lesen, a 5-series bmw pull over right behind my car. n no one attended his car yet. so my super kind policeman decided to do his duty by checking that car n letting me go. coz big expensive car drivers are usually troubles i guess. like a drug dealer? who know right.

after settling everything, i lepak-ed with nilad n zaki @ bangi kopitiam. mase tgh tengok drinks menu tu i found a section of Kiss Kiss Jelly Ball. hahahaha. gile tak bole blah name air kau. kiss kiss hard dick. bluwekkkkkkk.

later on me n nilad went to bb. kononnye nak cari special gifts for our boyfriends la kan. i wanted to buy a cute boxer but i cant find any! urghhh. dah la main purpose tu nak cari hadiah but i end up shopping benda2 lainn... distraction! but it was a fun night out with nilad. me & n dah lameeee tak hangout mcm ni. miss those days.

today i was bz as always. i went to damansara again n again to pickup cheque, etc. then i went to wangsa walk i dont know y. they're having mobile phone fair now til 7th i think. watever, so i went there just tengok2 if murah sangat kan. ok, murah. iPhone 299 ade, 450 ade, 599, 750.. in ringgit malaysia. blackberry pun around 500 bucks. tapi iphone die mcm2 jenis ade... lu mau macam mana? mau yg mini punya? kecik sikit. tada wifi lagi murah. ada wifi lagi bagus. ini singapore punya boleh pakai kuku. biasa tala boleh pakai kuku punya, mesti pakai jali. lu mau tengok tv? yg ini ada antena lu bole tgk tv. (iphone ade antena? i've seen it. saiko). i told my brother about this coz he knows more about gadgets. he said those are probably China made iPhone. celah mane apple keluar iPhone mini? hahahha. true. but its cheap. n it looks the same. n it has warranty. n most of all, people wont notice. so i left.

nilad came n joined me at the kopitiam there. rezeki nilad agaknye, there's a guy next to our table. botak, berisi, paling tak tahan - pakai seluar ketat n londeh separuh bontot............ dan tak pakai seluar dalam. oleh itu nampak la segala lurah dendam dan bintang2 di buntutnya~ euwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!

kau pakai seluar ketat.
bile kau duduk, seluar kau londeh lebih separuh buntut kau.
dan kau bajet kau seksi maka kau taknak pakai seluar dalam pada hari ini.
dan buntut kau berjerawat.
membiarkan perempuan2 suci seperti kami ini terdedah kepada kerosakan retina.

seriously that guy is reeaaalllyyyyy disgusting. muke cam rempit busuk yg berisi. urgh. nilad sampai tak nak letak tangan on her chair becoz she's thinking beyond my mind's capability - she's imagining if there was anyone like him sat on her chair before. euwwwwwww.

nilad has a problem of leaving things at my place, my car, my room, or anywhere i am lah and problem of taking what exactly she left there. yesterday balik from bb, she left her planner in my car andddddd she took 1 of her shoes n matched it with 1 of mine. seblah lain seblah lagi lain. todayyy she took back her planner n when she wanted to take back her other shoe that she left in my car, she didnt take hers. the one that she mistakenly left at my car. no. instead, dia pegi amik kasut i yg lain. seblah jugak. adoiiiiii. pening la kau weh.

FEBRUARY 4, 2010

it's a suwey number. i just realized. i keep on getting suwey dates i dont know why.

anywayyyyyy, in 2 days my relationship is 1 year long! woot woot!! im so happy. yeyeahhhhh!!

Lydia and Hadri sitting in the tree
K-i-s-s-i-n-g!
First comes love.
Then comes marriage.
Then comes baby in the baby carriage,
Sucking his thumb,
Wetting his pants,
Doing the hula, hula dance!

hahahahahaha. remember this song we used to sing when we were just kids? gile gatal. whatever!

i was surprised when i found out h made reservation for two on our anniversary! but its not a surprise like i dont know about the place etc. i have to know about it. i dont want him to ruin everything by taking me some place i hate. we discussed about where we're heading this thursday but i thot i have to make the reservation myself since he's always the lazy one. oh god i just cant waaiiiitttttt for the day to come! im not expecting gifts or anything coz we're both broke now (he just started working n i have a mother who's leaving me to paris for 1 month n leave me with a survival kit. duh!). im just excited that we're going to be a year. hihihi. im sorry if this annoys u like "baru setahun dah nak kecoh". watevaaaaaaaaaaaa~!! i've never been this excited about my relationship and as my close friends, u guys know already how long my past relationship was right. so for those who think im over reacting about this whole anniversary thing, u may go to hell with it. i wish i am this all excited for every day, every year, every minute in our relationship in the future. i want to be excited when i'm already 30, or 40, or 60 years old!!!

before everything...

1st time we were introduced to each other -azielah's birthday

2nd time - pool party @ mim's

New Year 2009

Dayo's birthday - before he 'disappeared' on a family vacation for few weeks

Miyan's pre-birthday - he's back / jet lagged

yes, we hangout a lot since then

yes, its so obvious we were drunk. the hook up :)

1st time he was introduced to friends @ ska's

the rest is history ;p

i love you so much Hadri Abdullah!