Abang's wedding

bride's reception was held at Pan Mutiara Restaurant, Penang.

groom's reception was held at Kg Penganting, KL.

family poco-poco after the wedding

weddings weddings weddings

Banyaknyaaaa weddingggggg. Stress i. Haha. Last saturday i was forced by h mom to join their rombongan to h abang longs engagement ceremony. It was held at bandar baru bangi. Total of h side was around 30 pax. We left at 930am from h house to equotorial hotel in bangi as it was the meeting point for the rest of the families there. Sampai je rumah the girl i stood there awkwardly in the middle of the rombongan. I was like, what the fuck am i doing hereeeeee? After tunang discussion i became extremely awkward. I sat at a corner. H was bz with his fam. His mom was busy. I knew no one tho i did talked with a few aunties whom i myself confused which side of family are they from. Lol. When people asked, u anak siapa? #awkwardsilencepause ermm i KAWAN hadri. Heeeee? When people asked h parents, yang ni anak u? #awkwardpausecontinued oh ni my son's soon to be. Hm. Soon to be. #bothawkward. Mana tak nyaaaaa. Si abang baru nak bertunang. Tiba2 yg adik bawak gf. Nak label apa punnn. That was the reason why i didnt want to join in the first place. I knew people will ask about me and i seriously have no idea how to tell them old folks. I really refused to go but h mom kept on texting me insisting me to join their entourage. Urgh. Never again. Lepas ni nikah i tanak datang. Sanding tak apa. Wedding. My abangs weddinv is next week. Id be leaving to penang on thursday as the nikah will be on friday. Guess what? I dont have anything to wear! I didnt prepare for the bride side. I totally forgot about it. I only have wednesday to shop on the bajus and shoes and settle other stuff. As the wedding date approaching, me and my family tiba2 laaa datang satubsatu problem. First the bunga telur girls and their dresses. I bought ready made dresses for the girls but the dresses were too big for them. So i took their meisurement and sent to the tailor for alteration. Hah amik kau tak muatttt pulakkkk. Oh goddd. If its big ok lagi. If its small nak buat macam manaaaaaa? Die. Second, the menu. Ini cari pasal la. As u know, my mother works in the hotel industry her whole life. When she found out that the venue doesnt display the food menu for guests reference, she went all chaotic about it. Gosh. Food menu je. She said its not proper to not display the menu on every table. So she has decided to do it on her oown. And up until now she is still looking for the material. Dont know if sempat nak print and stuff. Haih.

happenings & events

Blogging from tablet againnnnnn. Haha. Sabar je la k. As mentioned i wont be using symbols except for full stop and i wont fix a minor typo error. Heeeee. Last monday on the first day of cny. Me anr 3 other gfs wentvon a roadtrip day trip to tambunnnn. Yeapppp. How it happened? Well me and the girls were talking about cny then about the traffic and such and suddenly we got the idea. Why dont we go on a roadtrip? Just a day. We gobin the morning and come back at night. No neee to sleepover. Just go anywhereeee. So yeap we decided to just go with it. At first we wanted to go to kuala selangor. Ehem as suggested by yours truly. Our plan was to go to kuala selangor in the morning. Arrive bukit melawati. Take the tramp up to the top of bukit melawati and visit the lighthouse and whatever other stuff the have up there. Then we can come back down for lunch and then continue our day with junglevtrekking in taman alam. Then we can go to the fishermen village and fish pon or whatever nearby before going to the firefly spot at night. Ending withvseafood dinner. Voila so easy. All planned well until we realized that we did not check on the weather. It turns out that the weather forecast said kuala selangor was going to rain the wholeeeeeee day from morning til midnighttttt. So at the end we canceled the trip there and opt for a better activity. Thats when we thought of going to tambun. We met up at 7am in damansara perdana. Had bfast. Went on the road to ipoh. Stopped at tapah for second bfast. Continued journey and followed the signboard of lost world of tambun. Yup we actually had no idea how to get there. Semua perempuan and tak tahu jalan. We relied on gps on our phones and made our dear friend driver confused. Hihi. We arrived around 11ish and quickly buy ticket to go in. Packed. So many families and children. Gaaaahhhhhh. Belasah je. Z4 girls surrounded by conservative families and pervie guys. Anyway thevtrip was fun lah. We enjoyedvthebhotspring. Petting zoo. The park. Lake. Tin mining. Everything except for the amusement park. The fucked up thing about this lost world of tambun is that the place closes at 6pm. Sharp. We didnt have the time to enjoy the rides. So sad. We went to town to find places to have dinner butbipoh was dead too. Cny maaa. Semua tutup. Wantedvto try the nasi ganja thatvpeople talk about but closed too. We chose mcdonalds instead and went straight to kl. Fun crazy dayyyyyyy. Next. Abangs wedding is near. We family will be going to penang on the 2nd of february as the nikah will be held on the 3rd followed by perempuan side reception on the 4th. So yes... I will be in penang da wholeeee weeeeeeek. No work for me jyeahhh. On the 4th of feb is actually the 3rd anniversary of our relationship. Too bad i will be in penang while hes in kl working. So i totally have no idea nor have i planned anything to celebrate our anniversary. I guess im just tired with his childish attitude i dah malas nak fikir or plan anything dah. Eventho on the 6th and 7th are public holidays for kl.. H has to work. Which means ill be here alone doing nothing. Great. I told h already that i wanted to go to broga hills sangat sangatttt but i think hes ignoring it. Sighhh. I guess i have to make my own plans with friends then. Sedih. Ive been wanting to go the socalledhiking at broga hills bcs i heard its beautiful. Going with h would be better than anyone else. But i think i have to forget about going with him and find other buddies who want to go with me. Next. Besides the anniversary... Me and friends are also planning to go to awanmulan rrsort somewhere in semenyih or negeri sembilan for a 2days1night getaway trip. U know. Just to get out of the city for a while. Chilling. Bbq. Gossips. That would be nice right. But the thing is the room that we wanted is fuly booked and eome of my friends are still delaying their confirmation. Sigh again. This is what happens when you make plans with a big number of people. Another trip is tobperhentian kecil with the girls and i mean really just girls. But that is not going to happen anytime soon. Itll probably be in march or april. Too many things to settle first. Anyway i think most people are shocked to find me interested in all these advebturous outdoor activities. Yeapppp i pun confuse with myself. Seriously. Since when la pulak i suka benda2 outdoor ni. I hated sunlight. Heat. Woods. Animals. Height. Sea. Everything outdoor. But now i dont know why i wanted to do these outdoor stuff so muchhh. I guess people really changed. I didnt like vegetavlbles before this but now im eating everything. So weird how people can change like this. So weird. Im weird. Lydia s weird.

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Face Structure

i have been getting a lot of comments on my face lately. some people asked if ive done surgery or botox (wtf).. while others said i look better with long hair and it suits my face.

ok guys... just to clear things up. my features and my look have nothing to do with the length of my hair. yes, i've grown my bang and my hair is longer now (as i have never kept my hair this long). and no, i did not do anything to my face. 

you may wonder what is it... what is it?? what is different. well, actually it's because of the braces im wearing on my teeth. the braces have fixed my teeth and its alignment, and actually pull everything together. braces changed the structure of my face, my cheekbones are higher, my jaw is slightly lower and longer, my chin is sharper. it eventually changed the feature of my face, slowly. none of the closest people of mine noticed this since they see me everyday. but those who see me once in a while... they noticed that my face has changed. i did not lose weight as many claimed, because i only lost weight in the first month i put on the braces. my weight now and then is still the same. maybe because my feature looks sharper now, people think of that. haha.

please see the differences below. click on the picture to view larger size.

Before braces

 

 

 

May 2011 - the month i had 4 teeth pulled out (you can see the holes in these pictures. lol)

June 2011 - first month of wearing braces

July 2011

August 2011

September 2011

October 2011

November 2011

December 2011

Jan 2012 - most recent

 

im bored

Testing. Haha ok this is hard. My first time blogging using a tablet. Jeeeez it's so freaking hard!!! Mampus ler. Keep on typing as long as i can. Dheuwishdhrudxhdiwiqojdbrf im boreddddd. Im at home with my mother's annoying voice at thhe back babbling about stuff i dont understand. Its so hard to use symbols so excuse my writing ya. I have never been a fan of touch screen gadgets. Its so hard to type and switch to symbols and my nails are long so i keep on tilting my fingers and accidentally pressesd on other letters. I have to delete my words over and over again because theres no mouse for me to fixvthevtypo error besides the back button. Argggggghhhhh stressssnyaaaaaaaaa. Ok. Chill. Im learning im learning. I think i alrdy mentioned in my previous post that i moved in back to my moms place and now staying with her. Its so stressful bcs my mom keeps on calling me whenever im outside. Dah tua2 ni pun kena control lg. Haih. So yes, im currently living with my mom and only visit h over the weekends. I have no choice. Yes my life has turned upside down eversince. I used to think that i have no life when ibwas staying with h. Now its worse i feel like a walking dead. Lifeless. Lol. My everyday life is simple. Weekdays: every morning i wake up at 9.30am. I reach office at 10.30. Have my late bfast til 11 then only i start working. I go back normally between 8-10pm depends on my workload. If i have to stay back, id be working til past midnight. So normally if i go back... Lets say at 10pm, i will call up my friends who r mostly hanging out at wadi or oldtaste as usual to join them for dinner. And when im done eating, i go back home. Thats it. Seriously. So boring right? Sometimes when im lazy to hangout there i just eat at office before i go back or tapaw food. During lunch hour i sometimes go out from damansara heights too because theres nothing much to eat there actually. I always eat at a chinese halal chicken rice shop there because of their variety of food to compare to the boring mamak and slow melayu shop. So besides damansara heights, we normally go eat out at aji don plaza damas, wendys mont kiara, the curve or ikea. Ok by now u should stop reading this post already since its obvious my life is so pathetic. Weekends: normallyvi will sleep over at h house. But its also depends on his availabilityn not very often he gets off days during weekends so theres no point for me to come anyway and stay alone right? Every saturday morning i will attend yoga classes at the fitness centre. From 9-11am. Yeahhh saturdays ill wake up damn early for that. If h works in the morning and come back in the evening, we'll plan for a nice dinner, somewhere new. If h works in the eveningband comes back late night, i normally seek for backup plans with my friends. Haha. Every alternate weeks, i normally have my outing with my gfs to bangsar for lunch, mani pedi, threading, coffee and straight to dinner. We always do it on alternate sundays.and its always at telawi bangsar. Haha. So u will find me at telawi on sundays, whether im having lunch at bodega, plan b, delicious, madam kwan or nirwana. Then we'll be at sommerset to do our nails and erm,bwaxing. Followed by threading then coffee at starbucks bangsar village 1. Dinner is always outside of bangsar, mostly at the curve. So basically saturdays are for h, sundays are for me girlfriends. Sometimes we go to pavilion instead of bangsar but we find pavilion and kl very boring so we rarely go there. That is how boring my everyday life is. I dont go out to clubs anymore, only occasionally when theres birthdays and such. Im not used to staying up late night and partying anymore. Gosh u should see me in langkawi during new year celebration. By 10pm i already start yawning and couldnt wait to go back to the hotel and sleep. Haha. Maybe i started partying too soonbit made m me stop now. Tak larat ah. Dah bukan budak2 bawah 23 yg can still party hard. Im a home type of person now. Ecehhhh. So yeap. Thats it. What else? I myself not sure what i do. Im akways around bangsar and damansara. I dont know kl that much anymore maybe because driving in kl gives me major headache. I rather stay home and watch tv than going thru the damn traffic. I feel so old. I am old. I can no longer tick the 21-25 years old age group. I am now a 26-30 years old. Omggggggg. So. Old. When i go out to clubs, bars and malls... I see them young girls all fashionable walking with pride and i thought, i used to be like that. Not anymore. Now its their turn. Go on and shineeee children. Mummy dont give a shit about all this anymore. My priority is now my career, money and family. U girls so young please enjoy while u can but dont forget to study hard and pass ur exams. Beauty is nothing without brain. And no i dont mean studying for 10yrs long to complete a degree. Pls be smarter than that. Tak malu ke study lama2 when ur friends semua dah kerja and u still kena mintak duit mak bapak? Sighhh.

Christmas & Housewarming

update. sorry ler i forgot.

 living hall

 open kitchen and dining area

paintings i bought for H from Vitenam

 erm, yea i know it's little. i didnt have time so i had to serve whatever faster. lol. 

 my home made fruit trifle!

 from him, for me :)

 for him, from me :)

Happy 2012

Hello!

I know I haven’t updated my blog for quite a while (in fact I always do that, updating all at once and stop for some time). I hope it’s not too late to wish everyone Happy New Year!

Welcome, 2012.

Last year H and I broke the record of drama-free year. We didn’t fight at all, only stupid ridiculous arguments like, I wanna go out while he wants to stay home and play online games. Duh. As for me and friend, well… it’s obvious that everyone has grown apart and distant. Everyone has their own life to focus on now. I am however thankful for the closest friends I still have who care and have not forgotten each other (just yet). My career is stable and my family is working out very well.

This is going to be a very busy year for me. My brother is getting married this February. I on the other hand will be busy with my own wedding preparation too. H’s family will come merisik soon, so I have to start planning my own wedding already.

First and foremost, I need to check with my dentist when I can take off these braces. I hope I can get rid of it by this year itself *fingers crossed*

Next, I need to set a date. I cant really decide on the date, how can I prepare anything else? LOL.

Out of all the things I have to plan and prepare… I should really think thoroughly about my relationship with H. is he THE ONE? Are we ready? Do we fit each other? Can we go through this together?

My biggest concern is about H as an adult. Well, who doesn’t agree with me that he is still 7 years old? Tell me! He’s not yet a man and still a boy. There are things that adults do that he’s capable of, like saving money, financial planning, respect the elders and such. Characterwise like, manners and sensitivity and all… I must say he’s not there yet. He’s still playful and hasn’t been serious eversince he was born. Im really afraid I might burst and dump him somewhere unknown, a very remoted area you don’t really expect he will be. I might register his name for playschool with toddlers and send him to Manners School.

Believe me, if I’m worried about this it means this is really serious. I know a lot of my friends would say… he’s just being playful and that I shouldn’t be worrying at all. But it’s bigger than that. He cant make decisions. He relies on me all the time to plan everything for him. he has to be told to do everything! Everything!

I hope this year we can really work together to sustain this relationship. Im hoping for no drama and good changes that benefit all. I look forward to see the outcome of the year 2012.