friends

Friends.

What type of friends do you prefer? Do you pick your own friends or do you just go with whoever you know of?

I pick my own friends. Not because I think they are not cool or they are more attractive. No. I have trust issues.  People may think that I am very easy to get along with (I know I am). I am friendly, and I have no probs making friends with strangers. BUT, only if I want to. Only if I think I wanna know that stranger.

I am more driven to know those shy type of people. Haha. I don’t know why. I just loveeee them. They are very shy, very insecure and innocent (look). I find them very interesting, curious and what not because I just have to know WHAT IS IT THAT YOU’RE HIDING FROM ME? Lol. Though there’s nothing, just the way they are.

I don’t fit in easily with loud people. i always fight with them. dont really get along easily. U know when u were younger ur mom, ur aunties and all said, u r most likely to find someone who is the total opposite of urself. And if u fight/argue a lot with someone, u’d end up marrying him – at that point I was so scared I was going to marry my own cousin or my brother because I fought with them a lot. Incest wey! Euw euw euw.

When I was in primary school, I had friends who are totally the opposite of myself. They were… different. We had different interests, hobbies, liking in all things. But I don’t know why I stayed with them, followed them everywhere, let them influence me on what to do, what I SHOULD like, where I should go. It’s crazy. I stopped wearing shorts because of them. I stopped playing with boys because of them. I asked my mom to wear tudung because of them. Heck, I even wore tudung a week because of them. I asked my mom to sack the maid because apparently my friends don’t have maids. And I was so embarrassed to call my parents Mummy and Daddy. Lol. Now when I think about it, I am so proud of what I am, what I have, what I do now.

As I grew older, I found out that there are many more girls who are alike me, who share the same interest, hobbies, fashions, activities, everything! I thank God I found them and stayed with them until this very day. And that is the reason why I pick my own friends. I want to be who I am, not who they want me to be. I want to be able to decide for myself and have people who support me what I do.

However, we all have friends whom are not up to our ‘expectation’. Well, some don’t have common sense, some lack of sensitivity. What do u expect? Everyone cant be perfect. We all have our own flaws. True, we get annoyed by some who think selfishly of themselves, but really, it’s up to u whether u want to act against it or accept them for who they are. if u can tahan them, fine. If u can’t, sometimes u have to talk to them (in a nice way). True friends will accept ur advise. If they can’t, u don’t have anything to lose (or maybe u do, just think wisely).

Anyway, I am just happy to have my friends that I have now. Not the ones who keeps talking shit and backstabbing me the whole time. These are true friends, irreplaceable. Those who stand by u throughout ur ups and downs, who bare ur shit and nonsense, who give u advises and listen to u intently. Who will always, be there.